Rise out of my bed, pissed at how//
All this turned out, as I begin to diss myself//
How many ways can I explain I exist in hell//
I'm suffocating face down in the wishing well//

My downs and ups, I'm wishing they were flipped around//
Look up to you, and all you do is kick me down//
And now it's- rise out the death bed, wish me well//
And witness my offensive against myself//

I'm missing out on all the things I wished about//
Confused at what it was I did when I wished them out//
So wish me well, or whatever fuck it fish me out//
The Chesapeake Bay baby, with a fishy mouth//

If this is how it is, you can dim the blinds//
And count me out, goodnight, you can hit the lights//
Goodbye- for now... I mean- for at least a while//
Okay, I'm back... Hooray- you ain't even smiled//

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It isn't easy to forgive and forget//
You never forget, and all we do is live in regret//
Admit and repent, and confess, and when I did it I wept//
'Cause it's what's out of my control that has me feeling depressed//

And I guess...

It isn't easy to forgive and forget//
You never forget, and all we do is live in regret//
We need to make a better UV ray//
Because the Sun ain't quite a bright enough light in these dark days//

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I try to- kiss the clouds, and I kiss the ground//
And you don't pick me up and you don't lift me out//
And now I can't go to bed and there's nothing on//
'Cause I threw the television set through the fucking wall//

And I'm a...

Insomniac when you go to sleep I'mma stay awake//
And slip away like the undertow but I'm over waves//
...I ain't under you but you over me//
And the weight I hold is immeasurable and crushing me//

...Walls are closing in and I'm underneath//
Of a swinging lowering pendulum and it's cutting me//
...And I'm letting it 'cause it's fun to me//
I'm invincible and I really don't even wanna be//

A hundred lifetimes trying not to die//
And not to pry- but I need some replacement eyes//
'Cause my 2 blues are damaged too far beyond repair//
And I developed an incurable thousand yard stare//

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HOOK

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Since the day I became the goblin and gobbled amphetamine/
I been solving all of my problems with horrible remedies//
It was- hood to the burbs to a hooligan in the hood again//
From- pen to the pad to my own pad, and into the pen//

I got no motive in keeping up with the Joneses//
My only current concern at the moment's not to be homeless//
Emotionless- Put in work every minute and you don't notice it//
You only searching for negative and you focus it//

And me?

I got a problem with causing my own problems//
And I don't know how I cause 'em and I don't know how to solve 'em//
...And that increase in my lack of energy nowadays?//
...Well it's scaring the shit right outta me//

So ride along while I spit this song//
About how my time ain't gone, but I know this life ain't long //
But so far, the one thing you can learn from me//
Is only one damn thing in the world for free//

-And that's pain.