I got the blood of Edgar Allen Poe flowing through my veins//
And in a family full of poets he's going behind me//
I've thrown lyrics away more lethal than Mogadishu is known for evil//
StilI I go unnoticed and overlooked and unknown to people//

Sliding off the edge of existence ever since I existed//
Realizing life is a gift and I'll die to try to live it//
...But I committed to some bad decisions//
Disastrous living, the 2 world's wackest women//

I'm a magnet attracting sadness a tragedy tractor beam//
I'm accumulating a massive amount of wisdom too rapidly//
... and I have to breathe I don't think that the path I'm traveling//
Magically ends with me and the girl of my dreams and happy//

I never actually asked for the lives of 9 cats//
Give me a decent 1 and you can have 80 of mine back//
...The price of gathering up all of this wisdom//
Was too massive to pay if sadness is the cost of admission//

I tried to shine too many times and I oxidized and I rust//
'Til my confidence has been battered and systematically crushed//
And I'm shattered-
...And every one I love burns me up//
...And everything I touch turns to dust//

I been used and I'm used up can you understand where I'm speaking from//
Learning so many life lessons I should be the one teachin'em?//
....Losing your mind is impossible when you're Jonathan'//
I can't escape a prison I'm locked inside of and lost within//

I can't relieve the symptoms of a meager existence//
Beaten and underestimated til I'm weak as an infant//
I'm addicted to pain and constantly making the same mistakes//
And repeatedly paying for em' and praying my faith away//

But I'm blessed...

And I feel amazing I'm kidding I feel abused and angry//
Unappreciated by people who should appreciate me//
...An introverted extrovert I need to be heard//
...Yet too embarrassed to get on a stage and to speak words//

I can't communicate a chain of events//
To you if it thoroughly confuses me the way that it went//
But hey truthfully if could I wouldn't change too many things//
I love the person I became I just hate the world that created me//

Abandoned stranded standing here staring in disbelief//
Like my destiny is to prove to you Karma is make-believe//
I'm abandoning sanity 'cause I'd rather live in a fantasy//
Then play the victim in an existence which isn't fair to me//

Living had kicked my ass before grabbing a pen and pad//
My older brother killed himself and it messed me up really bad//
And my dad is an addict I'm amazed that he's still alive//
My suicidal little brother attempted it 5 times

And I'm eager to please the people who take advantage of kindness//
The least deserving of earning my trust always seem to find it //
A shell of the hell of a guy that I always thought I would be//
I'm a skeleton trapped in hell and I'm clawing out of it constantly//